Sorry to get all serious on you, but I'm going to with this one. Does anyone else struggle with anxiety? Scott has started probing me why I get anxious which has been really good. It got me thinking about how often I experience anxiety and why I experience anxiety. I think I've developed a lot of bad ways to deal with things over the last 10 years and try to control situations that are uncontrollable. And, anxiety rises.
What are some ways that my loyal blog readers (ugh, maybe my 5 friends) deal with anxiety?
I'm so excited to share with you all a way to.....
1. eat cupcakes 2. support Haiti
My friends and I have come up with a way to raise money in an effort to get Haitians clean water. We will be baking yummy cupcakes and all the proceeds will go to Deep Springs International.
Some of you know, some of you may not know, that my husband has been in India since January 21st. It has been a week from today since he left and I'm looking forward to his return on Sunday morning. When you are alone in your house, you are left to think more than normal (or am I the only one that feels this way?). Here is what I discovered so far during Scott's absence...
I miss him when he's gone
It sucks not having someone to share your deep thoughts with
I have awesome friends (someone has brought me meals every night while he has been away AND my friend Jess and my friend Bekah stayed overnight to help with June)
I discovered more about myself... that I like to journal and exercise
I feel guilty about taking time for myself (one of the things I discovered while journaling)
I got A LOT done, like finally taking the air conditioner out of our bedroom window
I have two pet peeves that I thought of today and thought I would share them with you.
#1... When I'm in the grocery in the grocery store with June and ask me if she is a boy or girl. Now, I'm pretty laid back and normally don't care about this sort of thing, but the answer is so blatantly obvious... the girl is dressed in pink, wrapped in pink and sitting in pink. What do they think my answer is going to be, "oh, um, it's a boy"?
#2... When people have fake deer in their lawn. I am not a big fan of tacky lawn ornaments to begin with, but fake deer tops it for me. What I don't like is when you are driving at night and I see one of these lawn decorations and I think to myself "CRAP... DEER!! I don't want to hit it, is it going to come flying at me, oh no!" only to think one second later "oh, it is a fake deer". Do people just put them in their lawn to freak other people out?
That is all for now. I just thought about those two things today and how annoying they are at times. What are your pet peeves?
For those of you who don't know, I love sugar. I love everything that has sugar in it... cookies, chocolate bars, other types of candy, soda (my favorite being wild cherry pepsi)... you get the point.
Lately, Scott and I have tried to start a new diet. The problem: our diet is supposed to exclude processed sugar. That means, excluding all of the above things that I love. Needless to say, it has been hard. So, last night we went over to our friend Richie and Nicole's to watch the World Series. And, if you know anything about my friends Richie and Nicole, you know that they always do parties well, including the food. When I walked in, Nicole had this home-made pumpking dip that was oh so good and home-made pumpkin seeds. As the night went on, cookies and candies made their way to the table. My response... indulgence.
I ate til my stomach was happy. White bread, cheese, cookies, chocolate covered M&Ms. Everything I am NOT supposed to eat. It was a couple of hours in heaven. I went home, slept and then woke up with a horrible stomach ache. My body is getting used to not eating sugar and since it had a lot of sugar, it was not happy.
I don't know how to feel about that. On one hand, it is great that my body is getting used to not having sugar. On the other hand, I still love sugar and now when I eat it, I have repercussions.
To sugar, or not to sugar... that is now my question.
So, while I'm confessing things, I will confess that I LOVE the "Ellen" show. I DVR it everyday and then watch it sometime when June needs to eat (sorry, I don't know if that is too much information for you or not). She literally makes me laugh every day. I wish I had that sort of humor. My humor is always sarcastic, which can be super funny at times and not so much at other times. I need to craft using my sarcastic humor at the appropriate time.
But, Ellen, she can just look at you and make you laugh. Here are things I like about the Ellen show (in no particular order).
- Ellen - The way Tony laughs when Ellen shows a photoshopped picture of him (like this one) - Andy and how he always wears obscenely short shorts - Bad Paid for Photos - Showcasing her audiences' talents - Her various other segments like "Mystery Word" or "Word of Mystery" (Ellen thinks they are the same thing, but Andy insists they are not) - How she brings out big burly guys to model the pink Breast Cancer awareness tank top - How she gives things away on every show to her audience members - How she twitters and makes people do ridiculous things. You can follow her by clicking here - How she now joined "Birddi", the Spanish version of Twitter - Jeannie - How she has her guests do fun things like play games or dance like the following
- The fact that she dances at the beginning of every show and says "I send all my love right back at you" - The 80's video dating guys
- How she calls people at random to surprises them - How she gives money away via the cash clunker or the golddigger - The the music she plays is pretty much always either pop or hip hop and makes me want to dance too - How she reads the letters from her fans and somehow turns it into something funny - The Shake Weight (no other explanation is needed if you have seen the show) - The dunk tank for Breast Cancer awareness month
By now, you are thinking "this girl is crazy"! And, you may be right, but I had to give my other favorite show some props since I gave Glee its props on my last blog.
I would love to one day go to the Ellen Show. My friend, Bekah, is going to go the week of the "New Moon" premier when she will be in LA. She is going to go when Rob Pattinson is on the show. However, I am more jealous that she is going to the Ellen Show than the fact that she will see Rob Pattinson, and that says a lot from someone who loves the Twilight Series.
Moral of this blog, if you haven't watched the Ellen Show, do at least once and I guarantee you will be in a better mood after the show than you were before.
